What if I never asked to be born

What if my life crashed before yours

Oh I'm saying that my mind's not where it needs to be

Here I go thinking that my life's changed

In a minute I'll see that it's all the same

And this pain inside of my heart just fades to grey, to grey

Goodbye to the demons talking back to me

Goodbye I'll see you in hell

I'm lost in translation, a feeling of inquisition, the cold metal presses against my temple

And blows my mind

It blows my high, yeah

Here we go, far below

I can't hold on anymore, no no, no no

So I just got to work, leave my thoughts alone

Then when I come back home the voices they are not unknown

I pack a couple bowls and stay for my daily decay

My body rotten it's halfway laying inside of this casket I made

I'm dying but I wonder if they'll miss me

Think about the times I walked around with a smile on my face and kissed me

With a sadness creeping closely behind, and my reflection holding a gun to the back of my mind

I think that I been flying way too long

Will I ever fall

Will my name be called across the clouds yeah

Will my soul live on

'Cuz life is louder than the Jordans and the money and the bitches

Tell God to tell Satan that I'm no longer fucking with him

Tell momma I'll be back in no time, just keep the prayers

'Cuz I ain't just anybody, no, no, no I ain't just anybody

What if I never asked to be born

What if my life crashed before yours

Oh I'm saying that my mind's not where it needs to be

Here I go thinking that my life's changed

In a minute I'll see that it's all the same

And this pain inside of my heart just fades to grey, to grey

So now I'm popping prescriptions, just feeling it out

Too scared to tell my family and friends I know they sick of me by now

I know they sick of me by now, yeah that's the thought process, I know it, I know it

Can't stop from feeling so I numb it, it goes like this

Every fucking time I wanna save myself

But I feel like I'm drowning I can't hold my breath

And I know that this sounds like a cry for help, well

Maybe it is, yeah maybe it is

So I sit back and let these demons run around in circles in my mind

Haven't felt free in a while but sometimes I feel like floating I ain't ever coming down, down, down

So I just fade away

I turn to dust or maybe smoke that got inhaled from the last blunt I choked to get these feelings out my damn throat

And it kills me inside, that I ain't ever felt alive

So every day I wake up and die

I think that I been flying way too long

Will I ever fall

Will my name be called across the clouds yeah

Will my soul live on

'Cuz life is louder than the Jordans and the money and the bitches

Tell God to tell Satan that I'm no longer fucking with him

Tell momma I'll be back in no time, just keep the prayers

'Cuz I ain't just anybody, no, no, no I ain't just anybody

What if I never asked to be born

What if my life crashed before yours

Oh I'm saying that my mind's not where it needs to be

Here I go thinking that my life's changed

In a minute I'll see that it's all the same

And this pain inside of my heart just fades to grey, to grey