The Vicious Cycle

Rewind Look back at time Do I deserve better Or am I doomed for life Suffering to survive There's no point to the pain The vicious cycle of life Fuck it all Life goes on Why do I even bother When every waking moment Gets harder and Harder and harder I've been right I've been wrong I've been reaping what I've sown for so long No hope Can't cope I've seen what my sins do I've become everything that I've been through I can't see the end don't know where start I'm doing what I can to keep from falling apart Its only getting worse, becoming numb again The vicious cycle never ends I'm alive with no life to pursue I don't have a future to look to Can't see if where I'm going is where I want to be I'm going nowhere slowly Lost the fire inside with no will to continue Like I'm digging a grave that I can't wait to jump into A slave to my ways, I watch my days waste away Am I coming or going or stuck in between I'm wasting my energy on shit that don't matter While life barrels forward faster and faster I'm moving too slow, trapped in a pattern No sense of direction, thoughts are scattered Nothing more to give Lost in my regression Becoming numb to progression Can't move forward, nothing goes as planned My world is falling apart in the palm of my hands How can I find my way If I don't know what I'm living for? Is this all there is? Is there more to this? This is the opposite of bliss The vicious cycle of life