Tjitji (feat. Miiesha)

I'm so tired of hiding that I'm dying inside

I'm steady holding back tears in a country that's blind

In a country that's Blak but we don't talk about that

I nearly took my own life and turned in to a stat

But you do wanna talk about my trauma

Talk about my Dad being flora and fauna

Talk about the fact you benefit from our suffering

Talk about the fact I've never lived on my country

I'm disconnected but you ain't affected

On the day to day so you ain't ever learnt the message

Well, this shit is desperate

I had a family who loved me with a clean bill of health

20 years down under I wanted to kill myself

And I still do from time to time

It brings me comfort, it calms my mind

When I was young I didn't realize I had a disease

I figured it was normal to wanna be at peace

And I found it when I crossed the street

I closed my eyes crossed my fingers hope a truck kill me

Hope that I could be free from all this hurt

You only stand with me on top of 6 feet of dirt

I want what you want, I swear we all the same

I don't want to live my life digging my own grave

I don't want to explain why this shit ain't okay

I don't want to see the same cycle happen again

I don't want to hold my children while they shaking in pain

Bring them in to the world and tell them that it's okay

Do I lie to their face, what the fuck do I say?

When the same very pain made me wanna blow my brains

Same pain made my dad an alcoholic

His dad had the same fate this shit is hard to stomach

But you watch it as long as you profit you've forgotten

We the skeletons that you hanging from your closet

For the moments when I'm not there, know that you are here always with me

For those old chains on your feet forgive them to be slave to nobody

At each cross roads define yourself or somebody else will take the lead

And know that love cannot be killed if your heart is filled by what you give not receive

My dad called and he gave me some wisdom

He said, Son, I can see you dealing with symptoms

I see your pain I've felt the same

If you want real change you gotta play the long game

There's no easy fix and this shit is all consuming

I know you're overwhelmed, I know this shits confusing

I know you're troubled and don't know what to do with it

The simple answer is we're all human

So understand why you want this change

If you don't ask why you might be here today

But your motivation fades if you ain't got no stake

In seeing this through 'cause this gonna take

Much longer than a second longer than minute

We might only lay the ground work our children finish

You won't fix what you don't understand

Man created this problem, the solutions in your hand