Fatherless

Well, here's a tale I've not yet told I was a victim when I was 8 years old I was shipped off to a dormitory Full of kids who made no sense to me And I cried myself to sleep each night For 3 straight weeks until I was dead inside But I'm not asking for your pity It's just that fairytales about fathers make me angry I was never taught how to deal with this But I soldier onwards nonetheless I'm fatherless and it makes me feel like I'm an alien Oh lord, what I wouldn't give For a caregiver who had care to give I'm alone and I don't know how or if to be a man Look at me now! Vacancy, job vacancy! I need somebody to be the making of me Someone to take me fishing You can't blame a grown-up kid for wishing Someone to teach me how to shave To tut over the mistakes I've made To offer some fatherly advice Some kind of acknowledgement would be nice I was never taught how to deal with this But I soldier onwards nonetheless I'm fatherless and it makes me feel like I'm an alien Oh lord, what I wouldn't give For a caregiver who had care to give I'm alone and I don't know how or if to be a man Look at me now! Do I make you proud? Oh, look at me now Have you heard the news? I've finally found Jesus He'd locked himself into the bathroom at the party I had to talk him down he was having a whitey And he said "Francis, I don't need this The expectations and relentless pressure Of a distant and judgemental father" And I said "I can see what you mean, JC But at least he's paying some kid of attention To his miraculously spawned conception But for some of us we struggle to be seen And I sold my soul to rock and roll In a desperate throw to even be noticed at all." Look at me now! Am I enough of a man? Oh, look at me now