Second​-​Rate Solutions to First​-​World Problems (feat. Chika Kokuba)

I'm a hoarder of antique mirrors But I'd give them all away to just see what's in front of me The clutter of old love, it speaks to my fears A broken home mistaken for a fortress through the haze of tears And I'm trying not to drown But these heirlooms always weigh me down She's shrouded in clouds, I saw a vision of a white gown And I know I've made my bed And some days I feel I'd be better off dead But every now and then I hear a voice in head, it says: カーテン開けて陽を浴びる また目が痛くなる やめない、絶対諦めない 光が命を繋ぐ Death is approaching Regret is encroaching On a lifetime spent Just wondering where all the good times went Neither laughing nor crying And neither living nor dying I had blocked out the light But I forgot that the sun shines even when my eyes are closed tight Vanity is the killer of identity I'm counting every blemish and I'm losing my humanity Is youth wasted on the young? Well it was wasted on me Between the lines on my face you'll read a tragedy And all I wanted was some sympathy I wanted to be worth the salvation they were offering I couldn't love myself so I just changed who "I" was But that me couldn't last forever Beauty never does カーテン開けて陽を浴びる また目が痛くなる やめない、絶対諦めない 光が命を繋ぐ (心配しないで、過去忘れて 未来を見つめて 後悔、時間もったいない 幸せも痛みも共に) Grasping harder at straws I wanna drink every last drop From the fountain When I should be scaling mountains But I'm sitting here, head in my hands Help me to find the strength to stand On my on two feet Because alone I'm stumbling towards defeat Breathe life into my lungs Untie the noose around my neck Inhale the present, exhale the past This crystal ball is now broken glass Help me escape from memory And I'll set this note back on the shelf I just want someone to love me I just want to learn to love myself