Against Myself

There it is back again This tingle I have never missed Hits me hard Oh, my mind starts to drift (Release me from this never-ending nightmare) It's the story that's always the same There is no one to call, there is nothing to say To send it away I am not okay (...) Panicking right I have lost my sight I am lost in here Pulling me down Down a hole There is no escape (This chaos will make me break) I won't evade this hell It's all within my shell Hurting me hard Tear apart what's left of my soul (I am losing control) These noises are too loud Please come help me out I'm trapped inside With monsters in my mind Losing my hold to reality (Why can't I run from me) Deep inside Struggling to find a light The horror erases my sanity (I am afraid of me) The self I am to become I am afraid that these demons will make me choose the wrong The wrong way, wrong turn, wrong me, wrong life I cannot breathe with these thoughts that cut me like knives I cannot see when the paranoia kills the light It's drowning me all this weight that's climbing up my chest It's killing me and I can't find any place to rest I'm trapped inside With monsters in my mind Losing my hold to reality (Why can't I run from me) Deep inside Struggling to find a light The horror erases my sanity (I am afraid of me) Clouds cover up my happiness How am I supposed to believe That it's always the darkest just before the dawn (A new day will come) The only thing that's holding me back The only reason for me to feel this pain I'm fighting against Against myself (...) There it is back again This tingle I have never missed Hits me hard Oh, my mind starts to drift I am trapped Inside With monsters in my mind Losing my hold to reality (Why can't I run from me) Deep inside Struggling to find a light The horror erases my sanity (I am afraid of me) (...) Panicking right I have lost my sight I am lost in here