Is This Heaven

These days I feel so lost and alone These days, you're gone So get out of my way I want to be alone Don't come to my door I'll pretend I'm not home These days It feels so good to be with you These days you save me from myself When I want to get lost You pull me back in When I want to be alone You help me see the good I need to thank you for ruining me and all I was because I Built myself up way higher than you ever could and now I'm searching for something more that I can't give myself and I don't know where to look I'm turning everything upside down just trying to find myself The whole time