Better

I don't know what to say When my mom tells me to be kind To go easy on the pain I don't think that day's so far away Anymore My dad asks if I'm okay Says that beauty grows in dark places But light can feed the same And it's warm Three weeks ago I learned my mind is not my soul And I've been feeling better Knowing this is not forever Knowing I could learn control Thousands of ways I want to change Thought I'd try it all at once Just open up and be done Bring me back down to earth I'm spiraling in mist and moonbeams It's better than the dirt But it's work Three weeks ago I learned my mind is not my soul And I've been feeling better Knowing this is not forever A year ago I threw my whole into the pit Begging for forgiveness Begging for direction I'm not ashamed anymore Not to blame anymore We don't know what life's for I've been feeling better Knowing this is not forever Knowing I could learn control