Lilac

I've been grinding my teeth Just to get through the day Push me off of my feet You know what they say I'm out of my mind And out of control Just want you to know, want you to know I know I've been tense That's the mood of the month I just wanna scream Instead of talking too much I'm thinking out loud But I'm thinking too much Inside of this hell That I always dreamed of But when the rain falls I feel something real I'd rather the pain hit than ignore what I feel I've been crossing my i's And dotting my t's Sending mixed messages Through the comforts I keep The stars in the sky I think that they're nothing more Than a figment of time Extraterrestrial lore Under lilac skies And the ambient blush I'll ponder the nights Where I'm feeling too much The hollow sound Of my ribcage Begs the question Am I just taking up space But then the rain falls I feel something real I'd rather the pain hit than ignore what I feel When the rain falls I feel something real I'd rather the pain hit than Ignore what I feel Outside of the times When it burns too bright I'm taking my time To stare into the light