Note to Self (feat. Jewell Jones)

How do I start? Maybe just from the heart (uh) I know your name Biz, right now I'm talking to Mark (yeah) Your therapist told me I should be a little nicer to you (um) Then maybe it's time I try speaking life into you (alright) But if I'm honest, that's where I start to draw a blank It's crazy, it's like the good is more hard to say Why is affirming you so harder than critiquing you? And pointing out your flaws is much easier for me to do I don't wanna see you lose, I know other people do Last thing you needed was for me to be mistreating you Judging you for every little thing you do Minimize your wins, maximize your L's thinking I was teaching you Is it that I set the bar way too high to reach for you? God said to be holy, so at least I don't think I do I ain't mean for you to feel defeated when you can't meet it You gonna' make mistakes, that's why it's grace needed God said I should love you like I love me But lately I've been my own worst enemy (my own enemy) I'm my own worst enemy (I'm my own worst enemy) I'm my own worst He said I should love you the way I love myself But what if I don't love me so well? (I don't love me so well) I don't love me so well (mm) God love you, your kids loved you, your wife loved you (for real) So many people you never met in your life love you (uh) And I know that's hard coming from me (I know) 'Cause lately it feels like everybody love you but me (everybody but me) But please know that you are worthy of the love you received (oh I) Your sin don't disqualify you from the love of the King (oh, oh) I know you fear the sum of your struggles will come for your seed But you a good dad, that's what they'll grow up to repeat Just try your best to serve Christ and keep loving your queen Though you may never be as perfect as you wanted to be You tryna' be something that you never grew up with, it seems And that ain't easy to do It's like you killing it and everybody sees it, but you You just check for the flaws (oh) You be receiving the boos, but you reject the applause It's like the negative is easier for you to receive And the positive is much harder for you to believe, man God said I should love you like I love me But lately I've been my own worst enemy (my own enemy) I'm my own worst enemy (I'm my own worst enemy) I'm my own worst He said I should love you the way I love myself But what if I don't love me so well? (don't love me so well) I don't love me so well (me so well, um)