How Could You Ever Think I Hated You?

The night bus drove behind my old school Shone lights on broken tiles and cracked paint Tell me have I changed? Well memories blur like rumours these days So I stayed up late to comb through my brain Wallow in my ways How could you ever think I hated you? Slipped and fell was feeling shades of blue Darker than the deepest swimming pool Beneath the surface watched as you withdrew How could you ever think I hated you? Nervous kid not much has changed since school Gin half mixed I never had a clue When I held back I wasn't there for you Goodbyes we never said on your porch Like apologies that always fell short Living in remorse And when your eyes flickered and closed I wish I had known That the blame this whole time was under my nose Wasn't helping I Wasn't helping How could you ever think I hated you? Slipped and fell was feeling shades of blue Darker than the deepest swimming pool Beneath the surface watched as you withdrew How could you ever think I hated you? Nervous kid not much has changed since school Gin half mixed I never had a clue When I held back I wasn't there for you How could you ever think I hated you? Slipped and fell was feeling shades of blue Darker than the deepest swimming pool When I held back I wasn't there for you