How Lucky Am I?

How lucky am I, that I can afford to be alive? How lucky am I, that I'm living through the end of times? Giving up everything I wanted has brought be peace of mind Got nothing to do today, but still I think I'm doing fine Autumn leaves, something calling me My younger self, are you proud of me? Coming up from behind me is a pair of electric eyes The doctors, barkeepers, and Eddie keep me well-anesthetized How lucky am I, that I am easily paralyzed? Got nothing to say here, but I'll sing whatever the fuck I like And I can see that it's not meant to be My older self, have you forgiven me? How lucky am I, that I can afford to be alive? Everyone that I knew deserted, guess this fucking town is mine The eyes behind me widen and I am paralyzed (In paradise) I don't know what Eddie gave me, but he said I'd be just fine