Hurting

When I stop hurting

Will I get up off the floor?

When I see you, will I smile then?

Will I really know for sure?

I’ll stop believing that I might

Find you at my front door

With an explanation, hello or hi

Or maybe even just a proper goodbye

When I stop hurting

Will it mean I don’t love you anymore?

When I stop hurting

Will my heart be stronger when

I see your face, I hear your name

Or am close to you even?

Will I remember

That I’m no longer allowed

To hear you speak or laugh

And turn immediately around

Oh baby

I’m going crazy without you

But you can’t know that

You’re never coming back, and that’s the truth

When I stop hurting

Do you think I will forget?

That we grew up holding hands

So when our growing fingers met,

They fit together…

Do you think they do that still?

I no longer want to hope that maybe

Someday they will

I no longer want to memorize

The feeling of your hands on mine

The sound of your voice

Smell of your hair

If I had a choice

I’d forget where we stole our kisses

Oh, honey don’t

You think this is crazy?

But you’ve stopped hurting

And I don’t want to hurt you anymore

No, I don’t want to love you

Don’t want to want to kiss or hug you

Don’t want to miss you

Or love you anymore