The Pill

I was okay in high school But that all changed when I took the pill Wanted to be a grown up But all it did was make me shrill I was a theater kid But I just played strippers and drama queens And I never talked about how it hurt But now I'm coming clean I used to wonder what it would be like to be on TV Maybe then the senior I liked would finally notice me I used to want to date anybody that made eye contact with me Just a few seconds already imagined how great our lives could be I started changing before everyone else Happened so fast didn't even know myself Sometimes I wish I could go back, tell her Looking back at it None of it mattered I didn't spend enough time alone to find out who I am Spent half the day just playing a role or being in a band Still haven't got a grip on reality even though I try But that's okay I like it that way And I guess I'm doing fine I started changing before everyone else Happened so fast didn't even know myself Sometimes I wish I could go back, tell her Looking back at it None of it mattered Long drives after class Hoping we were more than friends Memories play again in my head Even good things have to end