Cry 4 U

I don't wanna cry for you But my eyelids leak Over flowing my head I don't wanna die for you Suicide on repeat Run it back in my head Wish I never tried for you Wasted energy And it's making me sad Never said bye to you Now I'm lacking closure And you got me down bad On the outside I look like I'm good without you But I torture myself in my head It about time I learn to breathe without you Rather hold my breath till I'm dead You Drained me Till I was weak And you're next move To bleed me dry You played me But love ain't cheap Paid the price With this knife in my back Bout to take my own life Like a wrong turn Finally got control Told my Demons it's my turn I hit the fucking bottom like a rock When will I learn My life a living hell I'll just sit back watch the sky burn I don't wanna cry for you But my eyelids leak Over flowing my head I don't wanna die for you Suicide on repeat Run it back in my head Wish I never tried for you Wasted energy And it's making me sad Never said bye to you Now I'm lacking closure And you got me down bad On the outside I look like I'm good without you But I torture myself in my head It about time I learn to breathe without you Rather hold my breath till I'm dead It's a bad vibe I ain't tryina think about you But I can't to shake what you Said that night Stuck in my head Playing over and over It's a bad time Not right now I mean my whole life On my sad vibes Going off the rails Can't seem pick the right track Putting all the pieces back together Get my life back Ain't tryina get high But Gave my self a contact Hate what I've become Insecure about what I lack Guilty by association Hanging with myself Full of desperation Thoughts of ending myself Dissociation I'm losing myself I thought you'd help me find me I don't wanna cry for you But my eyelids leak Over flowing my head I don't wanna die for you Suicide on repeat Run it back in my head Wish I never tried for you Wasted energy And it's making me sad Never said bye to you Now im lackin closure And you got me down bad On the outside I look like I'm good without you But I torture myself in my head It about time I learn to breathe without you Rather hold my breath till I'm dead