Purgatory Origami

I just been trying For wishful thinking But I've been worried 'bout you so what's the point Cause I been hoping And I've been wondering If you'll ever come round this part Cause I live with a figment of you Based upon the things that I've been thru And I'll fool myself a time or two Saying I don't care for you But I know what's real when the lights get dark And I know I feel too much to start When I'm planning for my next mistake I'm abandoning what faith could make If I knew what's best I would take my time But I'm so clueless when it comes to life When I'm tearing My heart out For you Come out when you want Or just stay instead Doesn't matter when you live in my head I don't think you know Just how bad it gets And I don't think you care about now Take time when you need to figure it out And go live life so that you are here and now But at no expense you'll try to cause me some pain And I'd take it just so I could feel you again I'm not in hell But I've Been here before And while it's Better now I'm not quite sure If this is heaven yet But while I wait I'll take the time To try To get to know this place When you want to say That I'm not really over it You state a case 'Cause you don't want it to quit And I know, I got faults But at least I will admit them, You won't, Take the blame For all those you've offended You're just, Like your parents Who you, Have resented 'Cause you could never learn And I just think that it's funny That you're oblivious That you are living a comedy Based off repetition You don't wanna act your age Cause you never make change And you wonder why you waste time (Instrumental) I've been trying to say I'm killing time When folding again Then I unwind You wish you could And you'll say so I'm strung up on it And your halo Whether I wait It doesn't mean that I am trying You bat ahead But doesn't mean that you're alive Falling apart 'Cause then I would ask why You'll never say When you look me in the eye And I just wanna leave it To come through us all But you just wanna take it And hold to your soul I've been amazed that you cannot see You're tucked inside like origami I've been trying to say I'm killing time When folding again Then I unwind You wish you could And you'll say so I'm strung up on it And your halo Instead of just sulking I'm looking for trouble Wherever it comes my way Your temper's tempting me to stay But I'm not angry anyway I'm just looking for my day (Okay) Well I can stay and talk And say too much But if I do then I Won't learn enough I don't take advice It makes me dumb But I think I'll listen for once And I know I'm not worthless but I'll tell you That I feel I deserved it when that's not true I could sit here and cry When I don't need to So I'm saying goodbye 'Cause I've got things to do I've just been wanting to know If I had been told a lie 'Cause you were trying to spare my feelings When I was opening up I thought that you were alright But then I found that you're a bad person But I feel grateful for all that had come 'Cause I'm still alive and having fun And through my own hands I'll become Someone better off alone And I know I'm not worthless but I'll tell you That I feel I deserved it when that's not true I could sit here and cry When I don't need to So I'm saying goodbye 'Cause I've got things to do