Garden City

I woke up feeling like a failure Like there's nothing worth redeeming in my bones Yesterday was everything I love to do And still, I woke up feeling like a failure, alone And my window looks over a garden But these days all the weeds are overgrown Yesterday I saw them laying flowers in the dirt They'll be dead before the winter comes along And I try to take my time But it's not easy when you're living in a lie That the measure of a child Is just how much he has to give to his father And I don't wanna waste my life But for every single second that goes by It seems like everyone but me Is doing better, making more, and going further And last night I woke up from a nightmare I was living in a city full of thieves And we stole the things we wanted 'Til we thought we had enough But then we always wanted one last thing See, no one ever tried to plant a garden In the middle of a city full of weeds 'Cause it would never see the light Would hardly live before it died And you'd be burying the fruit before the seed And I try to take my time But it's not easy when you're living in a lie That the measure of a child Is just how far he's living now from where he started And I don't wanna waste my life But for every single second that goes by It seems like everyone but me Is doing better, making more, and going farther And I think I'll try and plant a garden But I don't have the measure or the means To ever know the end from where I started To tell apart the flower from the seed Someday I'll move into a city Where the streets aren't made of gold, they're growing green And the king will know my name And we'll remember all the days I felt that garden city grow inside of me