Unwanted Lifestyle

I'm alive, but I'm actually dying Loud but I'm actually quiet Hurt but I'm tryna stay solid Praying as I speed in this car Shining, but it's actually dark My headlights off as I'm driving Some people'll kill for this lifestyle that I don't wanna live no more I didn't even cry when Lil E died, I'm thinking that my tears are gone Heaven sent, I speed through the forest and I don't hear the tree Flyer than a hornet but I'm real as I can be, yeah You can stay here or leave, yeah, I ain't talking Tylenol More water than Niagra Falls Sold c— outta mama house When they turn the lights off, all of a sudden I'm heating now Got rich and now I'm at my dangerous Window, I be hanging out, I love how that ch— sound Sometimes I forget I'm famous All of a sudden she hit me back then she was dodging me The dr— would be quicker, but we plan on parking these Saint Laurent, I'm dripping, b—, don't even talk to me Shouldn't have to pay for your love, but I was told nothing was free How you wanna be me and I don't wanna be me? Remember we was hustling backwards Now I need six figures for my album And I count that money with a passion Try to hide that struggle with the fashion And my jewelry rose gold like Jalen Think I'm at peace, long as I'm dying faded My straitjacket Moncler, I'm going crazy I'm alive, but I'm actually dying Loud but I'm actually quiet Hurt but I'm tryna stay solid Praying as I speed in this car Shining, but it's actually dark My headlights off as I'm driving Some people'll kill for this lifestyle that I don't wanna live no more I didn't even cry when Lil E died, I'm thinking that my tears are gone When they turn the lights off, all of a sudden I'm heating now Got rich and now I'm at my dangerous Window, I be hanging out, I love how that ch— sound Sometimes I forget I'm famous