Grounded

It's super hard not reacting to the disrespect

I gotta pour my Henny strong so I can just reflect

I've been out here in the trench and I ain't missed a step

That's for my kid 'cause he's the only one this shit affects

Lately all the weed I'm smoking ain't give no effect

Fuck the hood, I'm in my crib, I'm finna roll up less

I told mum "It's good" so she won't even know my stress

She asked me how my music going, I say "Oh it's bless"

Yeah my body in the room but my head ain't there

No cap, a midlife crisis made me dread my hair

I can't see myself rapping this time next year

If it ain't adding to my life, it's super hard to care

Still sending paper to the jail, done caring what it's for

My son know that me and mummy ain't best friends no more

Right now, I'm just focused on getting richer

I hate acting, I'll give him no little bro and sister

I'm sipping Henny, in the other room, my son's sleeping

Been tryna fit all of this fun shit in this one evening

Shit, I got enough problems in my stupid life

The Henny help me get easy, two cubes of ice

This new ting say I changed and she didn't lie

Been sleeping with my back to her and I ain't even mad at her

She probably thinking that I'm thinking 'bout his mum

So I don't talk about it, truth is, really I just miss my son

And that's the mad thing 'bout it

School run in the morning then I play the streets

It's still crazy just seeing you brush your teeth

Yeah I'ma give you all the things I didn't have and shit

The **** telling all his cousins that his daddy's rich

He tries to hide the pain, I ain't around and I can tell

He's half me as well, I do the same thing myself

Soon as it's safe, you know that you can come and live with me

I can't have you in the car, I got a stick on me

I can't be fucking with these bitches that ain't good for me

Giving you everything you want, won't even cook for me

And I don't even get comfy, it's the hood in me

No regrets, that's no shoulda, woulda, coulda beens

I ain't blow up yet, ain't too sure what that means

The Henny pouring, my heart froze, yeah it's what it seems

Ammi'd out every night, I have the same old dreams

I mean, I ain't dirty no more but the stains don't leave