BRB, Tasting the Rainbow

I've been wandering around this place for days, telling myself it's all gonna be ok Pushing down all the negative thoughts, but I can't fucking stop them I've been wandering around this place for weeks, trying to find the exact place I lost it I don't recognize anything, no I don't recognize anything I'm pretty sure I'm gonna hate tomorrow If I don't try to make a change today And I know that sounds easy, but it's never that easy Oh I know it sounds easy I've been searching for some confidence, but all I got was a new sense of failure I've gotten lost in a sea of self doubt, now it feels like I'm drowning I've been running from everyone I love, turning my back on everything I knew I don't recognize anything, no I don't recognize anything I'm pretty sure I'm gonna hate tomorrow If I don't try to make a change today And I know that sounds easy, but it's never that easy Oh I know it sounds easy I've been running through my head all day, trying to find something new to say Getting stuck on the same six words, "What the fuck was I thinking?" Circle back to the place I once was, and the ghost staring out of my eyes Circle back to the darkest days, now take a look at the person I am today Nothing ever changes, when the dialogue it always sounds the same And it's not easy, it never will be