I’m sitting here thinking, boy its got me thinking.

Thinking about the times that I can’t keep forgetting.

My head keeps spinning and I’m feeling dizzy.

The room keeps spinning because I’m reminiscing.

I’m sitting here thinking, boy its got me thinking.

Thinking about the times that I can’t keep forgetting.

My head keeps spinning and I’m feeling dizzy.

The room keeps spinning because I’m reminiscing.

I can’t breathe, im running out of breath.

Im so scared about what might happen next.

Holding your hand as you’re breathing faster.

So many questions are you going to be here after?

Can you hear me? Do you know that I am near?

Can you see me? Im so lost in fear.

Please don’t go, there’s so much I want to know.

Look who I brought with me. They wanna say hello.

I didn’t tell you how I felt. My heart is beating.

So much air in my lungs and yours is slowly leaving.

You’re getting cold. You’re not responding.

You look so tired but you are not yawning.

I feel like you’re just waiting for you time to come but I’m not ready.

So drugged up you feel numb. My heart is breaking.

Thoughts racing through my mind. I’m so sorry!

I’m looking at your eyes. They look starry.

Im so scared let me hold your hand. I’m right here!

You’re not alone. I know your time is near.

You can go now, it’s time for you to go home.

But that didn’t happen until I left and heard it through the phone.

The angels have called for you. Now you’re out of pain.

I’ll be ok but nothing will be the same.

It’s weird here without you. I feel it most at night.

Im a whole wreck but I look like I’m alright.

Even though you’re not here I can still feel you.

I hope you know that still love you and I still need you.

I can feel that you’re near, an angel in the sky.

Yeah your soul’s gone but your heart is still alive.

I’m sitting here thinking, boy its got me thinking.

Thinking about the times that I can’t keep forgetting.

My head keeps spinning and I’m feeling dizzy.

The room keeps spinning because I’m reminiscing.

I’m sitting here thinking, boy its got me thinking.

Thinking about the times that I can’t keep forgetting.

My head keeps spinning and I’m feeling dizzy.

The room keeps spinning because I’m reminiscing.

Why question God? Is it all for a reason?

This sounds odd but I think you committed treason.

Dealing with my pain and I kinda feel hers.

Her thoughts don’t come in singles. They come in herds.

Speculating that room god I hate that whole feeling.

After that surgery I wondered if she was even healing.

I try to be there the best I can.

So depressing cuz all I could do was hold your hand.

Hi Carol….your daughter wrote this. We love you and we miss you. Rest In Peace and fuck cancer.