Lost

If I could forgive you'd know by now My darling is the silence loud Ringing with the rain that still falls My heart writhes in pain, I miss it all To tell the truth the pen is what has solely kept me sane With worries that again I will fall for each charade But cages never truly protect from the fall To live my life in fear is to never live at all Oh, never live at all The way I was alone The way I never minded The way I felt alright Though I was undecided To tell the truth the ashes sting more than the burn I knew better, but I threw it all away, overturned And lessons sink too deep into their absence the second time around How could I have known it then lost what I had found Oh, I see it fade And the seasons they are changing But this time my mind is my decision With the winters cold there comes a new beginning I know it's hard to find, and I know that I lost it But she'll live in my wishing mind And she will mend my soul in time She only wanted the best so I won't let myself forget That was not so long ago, oh, not so long ago The way I owned my soul The way I felt invited I held my head so high Though my flight was so misguided To tell the truth the ashes sting more than the burn I knew better, but I threw it all away, overturned And lessons sink too deep into their absence the second time around How could I have known it then lost what I had found The way I took my aim The way I missed my target And though I may feel lost I know that I will find it To tell the truth the ashes sting more than the burn I knew better, but I threw it all away, overturned And lessons sink too deep into their absence the second time around How could I have known it then lost what I had found Lost what I had found, oh