Communion

The lord of glory Let the church say amen Anybody else wanna come up here and give they testimony During this communion day? Anybody wanna share they story? Sister Black, wanna come on up here and talk to us? Come on up here, sister Black, come on Talk to these people Look, I tend to hide when I grieve Losin' my brother hurt so much that I cry in my sleep I'm wakin' up outta my dreams every night in a scream Tryna find reasons, sheddin' tears look like my eyes bleedin' Mind-readin' can't even process the thoughts I think I have my best conversations when it's just God and me Was confused, shit, feel like I'm drunk without a drink Got that call, made me sick to my stomach, it's hard to eat It'll shatter you, my heart's pure, it never matter who Never show loyalty to me, I'm givin' gratitude Tragic news, pain that left me in the saddest mood Depressed and family assumin' it's just my attitude I'm stressed bad, feelin' guilty after my best laugh For years I been dealin' with trauma, I took a step back From friends dyin' to prison visits and see my step dad So ahead of my time, when I sleep, I wake from jetlag Peace hidin' from me, best friends in the sky above me Scared to open up to my man, and all he doin' is tryna love me Used to spend the night with buddies But scared to sleep 'cause her brother Keep comin' in the room tryna touch me It's gon' take more than a prayer just to fix that 'Cause even when my truth come to the light, it still be pitch black I don't stress about bills, I know how to get cash Shit, I'm stressin' 'bout losses I'll never get back, for real Alright now, sister Black, I hear that pain, girl I like that I'ma need you to watch that cursin', though Know we are in the house of the Lord I hear that pain, girl, talk about that Day of the com— oh, oh, you got more to say? (Uh-huh) Pain so deep, sometimes my way to heal is to ignore it Happiness comes at a price and I still can not afford it Get to a place in life where maintainin' is harder Wasted days when the liquor started tastin' like water Drunk nights by myself weighed on my Shoulders that only dyin' could help I became a bride to my wealth Tossed dimes in a well, cry out for help, my eyes on a sale Risin' from Hell, but I could never lie to myself Was a shy girl, quiet as hell, dealt with anxiety They put me in them special ed classes and tried deprivin' me Mental health not addressed in our society Never was a highlight, my thoughts like, "Why try?" Thirteen years since Nancy was killed, crazy how time flies My childhood friend, I still get tears from my eyes A month after I moved to the Falls, wasn't in my right mind Get a phone call, said she got killed in a drive-by She was fourteen, I'm thinkin', "How could y'all do this?" She was a good kid, woulda been a honor roll student Scary to share these things, they embarrass me as a fiend Not ashamed to say I go to therapy every week Got a man I love, we both been through it, it's hard to see romance I'm tryna love a man that was never taught how to be a man The pain I heard and shit I seen'll leave you deaf and blind Press recline, gotta keep my head up high for my niggas What did I say about that cursin'? Gim— Gimme that damn mic Got me cursin' in the house of the Lord Give it up for sister Black, y'all Amen, good Lord of glory, amen Amen God got you through it, girl, he gon' keep gettin' you through it You'll keep gettin' through it, I just— I just need you to work on that cursin' for me Work— Work on them curse words Amen, hallelujah