Afterthought

I've reached the point where I don't regret my decisions I really don't give a fuck about how y'all feeling I'm at the point where I smile after I down a whole bottom And them white pills that you gave me begin to kick in My heart is scared I can't believe what I've seen But I won't cry Won't even let out a scream I'll call my goons up I gotta get my mood up Even though I am boo'ed up I don't know what love mean I ain't never been the same since my nana diеd It ain't the same when I gotta talk to hеr through the sky It's become natural telling my fam I'm good when I'm lying straight through my teeth They wanna help but I don't think they could This letter to the grave is everything I have to say I'm truly sorry that I couldn't say it to your face I hope you know that I cherish all of our memories And K.O. you helped mold me into who I wanna be Shoutout to Mac Miller, MGK, Slim Shady No father figure So y'alls music was the thing that raised me Some people hear that bar and look at me as if I'm crazy I split subliminals Your lost face wouldn't really faze me Thoughts from a balcony Wonder what it's like going down Not afraid of the aftermath of being 6IX feet down General Admission ahead Am I going up or down? Really don't matter if it means I can escape the sound Being told I'm a fuck up and that I don't belongs The story of my life but somehow I remain to stay strong Cut ties with those that brought nothing but negativity Cut ties with those that could never come match my energy Broke bread with those that had other mouths than themselves to feed I'll stay 10 toes for the southisde They'll take a life for me Keep talking to my nana Hoping that my words get through Take care of ma dukes To make up for what she has been through This was the end but now I'm starting to write a new story All praise to God because you know he deserves all the glory Helped me escape my past Now I am free from purgatory I'm finally free now I'm on my way to new territory