IDK If I'm a Boy

I don't know if I'm a boy I don't know if I'm a man I know I wanna be called pretty But I don't know if I want titties I guess I could say gender non-conforming But I've done really well conforming And non-binary doesn't have the ring I've been looking for I am Jake and I am Foster I am something in the middle But I'm fine with both these names that I've been given I don't know if I'm a reject I don't know if I'm a loser But I know that I've been feelin' Feminine since I was teethin' (maybe not that early) I don't know if I can rock it I don't think my ass is poppin' But I know that I've been breathin' Different when I'm wearin' makeup Maybe then never mind I was gonna undercut All of my feelings with stupid lines about musical theatre That's not what I'm here for I have a tendency for irony You see those stupid words served to protect me But I can't figure out those stupid words I don't know if I like he or her I remember wearing my mom's high heels And these pink work-out sweatpants Yeah, I was a little kid Who didn't know to hide it I remember hatin' all my clothes And seeing pretty girls with pretty clothes And I was envious How can I be one of those? I don't know if I'm a reject I don't know if I'm a loser But I know that I've been feeling' Feminine since I was teethin' I don't know if I can rock it I don't think my ass is poppin' But I know that I've been breathin' Different when I'm wearin' makeup And I told myself, "Lose a little weight And you can wear anything you want" And I tried to wait until I lost enough, but It never felt like it came And I told myself, "Lose a little weight You can dress any women's clothes" And I gained some weight, then I told myself "Fuck it, bitch, I am writing a song" Now I know that I'm a reject My own special kind of loser But I know that I've been feelin' Feminine since I was breathin' I'm not sure if I can rock it But I'm sure my ass is poppin' And I know that I've been breathin' Different since I've got this feeling