Vent

I took the beat Slowed it down If I blow off this shit you gon hear me now Rolling loud Only the smoke can control me now Blowing clouds Every inhale gotta story now Thinking back to the days on my back when I didn't have nothing I'm working hard turning nothing to something All my family looked at me like I'm bluffing Had to prove to everybody I ain't roughing Eyes was filled with water, nose was hella stuffy It was fucking hard, I can't cap for nothing When that doubt filled my mind, I fell out of my prime Couldnt stay down forever, I'm fucking bugging What the fuck is you doing, just keep on thuggin It's gon get a lil better, get though the rubbish Then my mom got that call from the hospital late at night Saying that daddy just kicked the bucket I started feeling like fuck it What the fuck is the point, nigga fuck this Everybody around me got hurt in my path as I'm walking the way of destruction And my vision got hella obstructed My priorities full of some fuck shit All this time I felt like that I wanted to die That depression shit nothing to fuck with Ain't nobody I wanted to fuck with I was feeling like nothing to fuck with Then I hopped in the stu, took a beat, made a verse I was feeling like y'all finna love this I can't make this shit up, I was trapping hard Way too hard Got too happy lost some playing cards Won some games, and some games I lost I was young, wasn't moving smart Losing heart Nowadays I stay A and R Always ready keep the blicky steady for them demons if I'm in or out my car I can't trust I stay safe in this mothafucka He protected my name in this mothafucka Now he gone, I'm the one in this mothafucka Stepping up to the plate in this mothafucka I can't have no debate in this mothafucka Do I have what it takes in this mothafucka To rise up to the plate in this mothafucka Time to put a new face on this mothafucka Do you know what it means To get so close to yo dream Robbed from you altogether Lost to life like you let em And ain't no chance to get better Silent voices trying harder to scream Always imagined the scene Never imagined that I would be left with degrees It's time to blow a lil steam I'll be cracking up the heat Because I get back to it I'm back to flip The pack, make a rack, cause I gotta keep stacking it I'm macking it Bills don't stop, nigga gotta stay on top before his family is packing shit I hacked for this My mama pray every day that her son staying safe while he out trapping shit Thank you mama I'll be coming home, I know you got my back and shit Hope you know that I'm sorry To my lady, the way I've been acting lately Keeping you in the dark It's been hard, I been running from it baby Thank you for keeping my heart You don't know it but you was the one to save me baby stay where you are I felt like I was just falling apart And my brothers told me to keep it together No matter the weather A Nigga feeling like I could fall apart just by touching a feather And everybody on my dick, it wasn't making it better Even waking up nowadays start to feel like a set up I really thought I was ready This shit is too fucking heavy As much as I wanna give in, a nigga keeping his head up I gotta Keep a smile while I'm stacking my bread up Because a nigga never dies if you really don't let em Yea I gotta smoke I drop a tear with each toke I'm puffing one for all the bros I can't smoke with no mo Know that you been here before Know you feel the pain Step right in my lane This is all I know I'm still on the road Rolling up the dope I gotta rap this shit out, I got too much in the dome Ain't got nothing to say to you mothafuckas I don't wanna complain in this mothafucka Everybody else got they own fucking problems Trynna finish they plate in this mothafucka Tell me can you relate to this mothafucka Full of anger and hate in this mothafucka Wishing that you could end it all But if you did then you couldn't keep stunting on mothafuckas I just gotta stay running and keep my head up All this shit gonna get to me if I let em Trynna keep my boat cruising in heavy oceans If I let too much water in, no more floatin When shit happen, the second hand keep on goin Time ain't stopping for nobody and you know it Shoulda listened to mama When she told me growing up woulda been harder than I'd notice