the buzz i need

New Year's Eve last year Locked up in my house I thought that it might be nice If I just killed myself Therapy was going well But something wasn't right I don't know if I can do this But I'm terrified I won't get to see you in the morning light If I poison myself even one more night How could I be everything that you need When the weather's getting colder And I'm too drunk to see The way you love me You're the only buzz I need Yeah, my eyes are blurring over Because when I'm with you I can be sober Summer evening careless Threw up in our bed Wish that I could stop this more than The spinning in my head So many excuses that You don't wanna fight I don't know if I can help it But I'm terrified I won't get to see you in the morning light How could I be everything that you need When the weather's getting colder And I'm too drunk to see The way you love me You're the only buzz I need Yeah, my eyes are blurring over Because when I'm with you I can be sober All the things I thought I had to do Made me fall apart I just wanna be addicted to Everything you are How could I be everything that you need When the weather's getting colder And I'm too drunk to hold you The way you hold me You're the only buzz I need Yeah, my eyes are blurring over Because when I'm with you I can be sober