What If I Fall?

Empty apartment, no one here I haven't met anyone's eyes The walls watch me grow out my hair I dawn a new disguise All my friends would stop and stare Cause they'd vaguely recognize A person for whom they used to care But now is terrorized Is it worth this isolation Just to source some inspiration Do I have to feel nothing at all To get to a place where I can Write a song or poem or story How will I ever find glory Staring at a poorly painted wall With no one here to see me fall What if I fall Carve a new life in October Suddenly feel seen Face some fears and get exposure Relearn how to eat Spend so little time with people Controlling what the world perceives Trying to maintain my little Faith in humanity Is it worth this isolation Just to source some inspiration Do I have to feel nothing at all To get to a place where I can Write a song or poem or story How will I ever find glory Staring at a poorly painted wall With no one here to see me fall What if I fall What if no one's here to witness My departure from sanity Self destructive habits Born out of excessive vanity I watch all these former friends Exhibit no empathy How will I recover and then Rediscover me Is it worth this isolation Just to source some inspiration Do I have to feel nothing at all To get to a place where I can Write a song or poem or story How will I ever find glory Staring at a poorly painted wall With no one here to see me fall What if I fall What if I fall What if I fall Please come catch me if I fall