sunstruck

I'm not tired, I'm just wired for a late nights stayin' up Talkin' 'til the sun gets stuck Back up in the sky Remindin' me I'm still alive I'd been lookin' for hope in a song Or a run or a deep breath a punch or a two-step Beat, that could carry me Away from absurdity You'd been smokin' lots and livin' in your head 'Cause at least you'd know where you last left it I'm left waitin' for you to wake up But you're still dreamin' of your next cup But it's never quite enough You pour it out, but nothin' will come From an ever flowin' cup When you're too fucked to fill it back up Left you alone, or I did my best Not to water a garden that didn't want to live There were signs of life, but it wasn't my land And I had my own to tend, and I'd forgotten it Well I played it back in my head, again and again Not to do any harm, just to try and understand Couldn't find a path, that made much sense Just some half-finished thoughts and a couple new plants I went lookin' for myself by myself And it wasn't close to easy, but it sure did help And my heart kept keepin' time Wonderin' where you were and what was on your mind But it's never quite enough I can think it and write it, but it's hard speakin' up I don't mind the sweet and wasted time The taste of your lips and your smirk when you lie But I try, not to get in the way And I try, so hard I evaporate A year passes and some seeds take root Your garden is growin' and mine's growin' too And the work's not always fun (work's not always fun) But it's better than starin' at the weeds and the mud We left behind some pain To get to the magic thing