PTSD

Yeah, it all began when I was 'bout the age of six Dad went to the store and now I haven't seen him since Then when I was nine another man into the mix Almost slit his throat because I saw him hit his bitch This is just the surface of the things I can't forget You look into my eyes and it's all pain and suffering And I could kill myself but I don't wanna try again I'm only still alive 'cause I have tolerance to Fent I am everything they try to be You can jock the swag but it looks way better on me Now it's Gucci on my ass and on my joggers, on my feet And I don't leave the house without my blade or twenty three And I hate it all this trauma in my head Walls are closing in, I wanna paint 'em all with red Think I made it, a diamond noose around my neck Everything I wanted but I still wanna be dead Listen to your words 'cause I swear it ain't never gonna be Any worse than the hurt I've already done to me I'm a man on a mission to outrun eternity I got fans but still feel like ain't nobody heard of me If I die, will you cry for this rapper life He was married to game but he couldn't find a wife We would put up with this shit since he rather would commit Suicide than be caught dead in a real relationship I am everything they try to be You can jock the swag but it looks way better on me Now it's Gucci on my ass and on my joggers, on my feet And I don't leave the house without my blade or twenty three And I hate it all this trauma in my head Walls are closing in, I wanna paint 'em all with red Think I made it, a diamond noose around my neck Everything I wanted but I still wanna be dead This is just the surface of the things I can't forget You look into my eyes and it's all pain and suffering And I could kill myself but I don't wanna try again I'm only still alive 'cause I have tolerance to Fent Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? I'm used to life alone so I'll just do it by myself Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? Will anybody help? I'm used to life alone so I'll just do it by myself