It is hard to be myself in English.

When I perform, I express feeling through sound. And you understand the feeling. But when I speak in English, the sound is unfamiliar. I feel unfamiliar.

So I perform sounds I have learnt.

And I know it’s a performance.

In my mother tongue, I am me. Also a performer!

But familiar.

I feel like me.

Me.

Before I became unfamiliar. Before feeling

  alone.

Before I became this performer. Still me, but before me, Performing.