Hard-Wiring

There have been times in my life Where it's felt like The hard-wiring in my brain Wasn't the same As everybody else's I shouldn't want to behave In the way that I sometimes behave Though I could feel her thinking Is he just going to sit there I remember knowing That that's probably what I'd do But the trees were glowing Under the shelter of the mountain There was just no glue to stick me to you Now there's things I'd like to say And things I'd love to change I want to tell you the truth But I had to laugh when You said you thought you knew me pretty well But I can't be anyone else Sometimes I think that it could help To take myself Out of the story stop chasing this glory But that's hard to do When I need you to love me And I want you to remember my name Though I could see her musing Oh Christ is he just going to lie there? I remember closing My eyes to drift away For all these false personas And all the big bravado Shame is the feeling that's left When there's things I'd like to say And things I'd love to change Oh and I want to tell you the truth Ah but still I had to laugh when You said you thought you knew me fairly well But I can't be anyone else And I know now That I can't be anyone else When I'm feeling lonely I think back to that morning I walked out of the building To let the moment slip away But I'll get it right someday Once I sort my head out Lord bless the man that knows not how he feels