17 Going On 18

Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one ahhh Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one, oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one ahhh Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one, oh two twenty-two See it's the expectations for me That make me wanna just skip right over tomorrow Wanna stay seventeen (seventeen) But age or time cannot be stolen or borrowed And I hate to say it My pride has been torn I'm so damn complicated That it's making me sore What am I doing? What the hell am I proving? Numbers are numbers And you're bound to lose em Eight-year-old me would be obsessed with Me at seventeen I know that in three years I will be laughing At what I used to be And I'll be sound But for now Ooo I don't wanna grow up Ooo I'm not ready to grow up Ooo I'm not ready, not ready, not ready ohhh I'm not ready, not ready ohhh Not today, not tomorrow But in a day it'll be tomorrow Why am I so scared to turn a decade above eight? Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one ahhh Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one, oh two twenty-two See I've been dreaming all of my life (my life) That someday real soon I'm gonna make it big And the world will be right (right) But fame fixes nothing, chasing is stupid 'Cause I still walk the same streets And to most I'm nameless I've even been on TV And I'm still not famous My clock is ticking My head is spinning I feel nauseous And it's the beginning Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one ahhh Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one, oh two twenty-two Ooo I don't wanna grow up Ooo I'm not ready to grow up Ooo I'm not ready, not ready, not ready ohhh I'm not ready to grow up I wrote these songs at fifteen And I sang them at sixteen And I'm talking to you now at seventeen I can't bare to turn eighteen And I hate this whole fucking age thing It's a mind game that won't stay the same When I'm twenty will I finally have a name When I'm thirty will I finally feel okay But these are trick questions cause I have a name And it's Lauren Jean And I'm seventeen And I can't stop saying how old I am It's the only thing that makes me feel seen And I hate that I feel this way 'Cause I turn eighteen in one day Yeah I turn eighteen in one day In one day I'm gonna be an adult I'm gonna have to make calls Gotta sign my own shit Gotta be responsible And I know I sound petty But I'm just not ready For all of this shit that I'm gonna have to know 'Cause I still feel twelve And at the same time I feel thirty I don't know myself And I don't feel like I'm worthy For what I wanna do What I wanna do Ooo what I wanna do I just wanna be happy Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one ahhh Oh two twenty-two twenty twenty-one, oh two twenty-two Now I'm eighteen And nothing's really changed I mean I registered to vote And I can get a tattoo Don't have to stick and poke Now I'm eighteen But nothing's rearranged I guess I'm learning how to cope And be okay But I'm slowly losing hope