can't hate you yet

I know it's not supposed to be easy But is it meant to be this bad? When I speak to my friends and family I feel stupid 'cause I gave you everything that I had I shouldn't have adapted I should've got out when I saw you the way that you are Surround yourself with bad men Cry when you become one Shouldn't but still can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet And I know that I should be We've never been good but Still I can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet I can't bear a minute of silence You kept me in them when you got mad You made me sit and listen to my mind When I told you it was heavy for me most of the time No I shouldn't have adapted I should've got out when I saw you the way that you are Surround yourself with bad men Cry when you become one Shouldn't but still can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet And I know that I should be We've never been good but Still I can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet But I wish I did I let you chain me with a disrespect I wouldn't even treat my enemies with And the worst part is I let you tell me that you love me now I compare everybody to whatever this is 'Cause you said you were trying And I always been naive I took your word because that's what I'm meant to do Now I have to be kind And I have to be nice 'Cause I can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet And I know that I should be We've never been good but Still I can't let myself hate you yet I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet