Self Destruct

I am prone to self-destruction Burning up till I can't function Even in the chaos, there are patterns that arise Until there's nothing left but tears in tired eyes If you need me I'll be rotting in my room There you'll find me Catching dust inside my tomb I am starved for motivation Wound up tight inside these bonds of expectation Always too caught up in Who I'm meant to be Chained up by the thought Of what you'll think of me If you need me I'll be rotting in my room There you'll find me Catching dust inside my tomb And the chains that hold me down They are all merely in my mind But even so these shadow shackles Leave me blundering and blind And my worlds gone helter skelter I can't stand on my own feet So instead I sit in bed Resigned in my defeat I can't seem to break this cycle I've found myself in I've tried so hard But still don't know where I should begin Maybe I just need some rest Or some therapy I've thought too hard about it And I've lost clarity If you need me I'll be rotting in my room There you'll find me Catching dust inside my tomb I'm just going in circles And it's honestly a bore And every day that passes by Feels just like a chore And I feel that I'm a burden So I hide myself away And I grab a pen and paper And write of my decay