Ever Been

I've spent some years Living Devilish I used to think That id never win When I look back on my Life and all of my mistakes I'm surprised that he still called me anyway I done been down to the bottom And I been down to the bottom of so many bottles Pills I was poppin Then he changed everything Now I'm more blessed than I ever been For a while I had to lay low Drama and the rumors and the lies They swirling all around my head Felt like I'm caught in a tornado Then they tried to kick me while I'm down And pour salt all in my wounds They said they hope a hitta stay broke Funny how these people Turn their back on you When they think you ain't got it And they claiming that you they folks Guess I'm showing them what they know I'm praying God come get 'em How you got opinions bout a life you ain't living I should probably hand out W-2's To all these women and these rappers That be commenting and all in my business No kidding You should stay all in your lane Like your tryna park a new foreign thing With the paint job finished And your squeezing in the spot And can't parallel park Or put a scratch up on the car Cause it's rented I've spent some years Living Devilish I used to think That id never win When I look back on my Life and all of my mistakes I'm surprised that he still called me anyway I done been down to the bottom And I been down to the bottom of so many bottles Pills I was poppin Then he changed everything Now I'm more blessed than I ever been I'm just feeling like I'm blessed Now I'm more blessed than I ever been I'm just feeling like I'm blessed Now I'm more blessed than I ever been It's been a long way back After falling off A lot of trials and tribulations a lot of pitfalls And I ain't never really been the one to play the victim Tell me who I'm supposed to blame These wounds were self inflicted Now I'm reaching all my goals And I'm touching road Making peace with fake friends That done turned to foes It's either murk you or forgive you That was for my soul But I'm positioned near the Sun (Son) And that's how I grow Now I'm winning like I'm supposed to I done been to hell and back And had my back against the wall But now I made it and I'm standing on my own two God just doubled up my bag I told my baby pack her bags I'll book the flight We gone vacation every month boo This what happens when you lock into your faith And never waiver and never fold In spite of everything you go through Take a picture of you want to Break it down Truth be told I'm just a product of his Grace And I don't deserve this spot or this space I remember times at 2am That I would look into the mirror And I would hate to see the sight of my own face So I sought his face And me made me a believer And he removed the people That were Brutus to my purpose Tryna see me in the earth So I would never see this moment Where I'm stunting on my demons Blessings falling on my Caesar Yea I've spent some years Living Devilish I used to think That id never win When I look back on my Life and all of my mistakes I'm surprised that he still called me anyway I done been down to the bottom And I been down to the bottom of so many bottles Pills I was poppin Then he changed everything Now I'm more blessed than I ever been I'm just feeling like I'm blessed Now I'm more blessed than I ever been I'm just feeling like I'm blessed Now I'm more blessed than I ever been