I'm still hella fucked up

Sit alone in a room, don't get out much

Even though I gave up all the uppers and downers I struggle to connect like a router

I don't think that I've blinked in an hour

Think that it's been about a week since I've showered

Relapsed, nose deep in the powder

Fuck, nose bleed, blood leak in a towel

They made memes about me and my mental health when I needed help

It felt just like a fever dream

And I needed out but they just said funny things and they beat me down

Now they're telling me they need me now, I thought I was the bipolar one

Then I wonder why my anxiety keeps trying me

I don't think this is something that I'll ever overcome

I'm just broken, huh

Been sick since the cradle

Every move is now fatal

Crush meds in my nasal

Level out, I'm unable

My mind is unstable

My brain is unstable

My thoughts are unstable

Unstable, unstable

Someone help me, I'm unhealthy

I'm fed up with this life, how it done dealt me

A shitty hand, really damaged, come tell me

Why I can't let them bash on me

Compel me to be an asshole and act like a dipshit

Everybody has a breaking point, and is this it?

A misfit with my mind on the sick shit

Dynamite with the lit wick, tick tick

Time is coming that I'm about to flip shit

On it's head, get up outta bed and I flip, BIC

Light a cigarette, take my meds, let 'em kick in

It's supposed to level out my head but it isn't

Visit the dark side of my visions

Think about the shitty situations that I've been in

If this is what my life really is then

I'ma just spazz the fuck out 'til the shit ends

Been sick since the cradle

Every move is now fatal

Crush meds in my nasal

Level out, I'm unable

My mind is unstable

My brain is unstable

My thoughts are unstable

Unstable, unstable

Since stability, hits been killing me

It's effecting the way that I live and giving me panic attacks

Gripping my ribs and crippling any chance that I had to be normal, limiting

Opportunities, anybody that was ever cool with me

Isn't even if they went to school with me

Truthfully all they really missing is the lunacy

They don't need to know about the way that I maneuver it

Trashcan full of orange bottles

Pill dust on the bottom, can't ignore problems

Filled up at the pharmacy and on God it's Christmas when the white lid twists off it

Pissed off at everybody and can't stop it

I wouldn't even if I could, I don't want y'all in my life

I'm a lone wolf in the darkness

Cold nights made me into a cold artist

So stop it

Been sick since the cradle

Every move is now fatal

Crush meds in my nasal

Level out, I'm unable

My mind is unstable

My brain is unstable

My thoughts are unstable

Unstable, unstable

Been sick since the cradle

Every move is now fatal

Crush meds in my nasal

Level out, I'm unable

My mind is unstable

My brain is unstable

My thoughts are unstable

Unstable, unstable