Back On Deck

She whispers sweet bullshit in my ear Familiar, it's what I always wanna hear But it didn't take long for my old regrets to be back on deck Cover up my attention Fat chance that I'll pay my debts with my mistakes Give me a break Is there even anybody left for me to trust for goddamn sake? Cauterize the hole inside my chest and burn my flesh The smell of honesty, decency, lingers in the air until it's gone I'm not the one (oh) I'm not the one who's holding on I'm not the one who's holding on Our agony is a distant memory September, can't wait 'til you're here Deliver all my favorite fears And no, it didn't take long for my old regrets to be back on deck Cover up my attention No chance that I'll pay my debt with my mistakes Give me a break Is there even anybody left for me to trust for goddamn sake? Cauterize the hole inside my chest and burn my flesh The smell of honesty, decency, lingers in the air until it's gone I'm not the one (oh) I'm not the one who's holding on I'm not the one who's holding on Our agony is a distant memory You get bored with an easy life Look for anything to make it right, you're stupid, guy There's no magic in maintenance Feel it getting stale? Then go play games in the basement, spacious Some people ain't worth a single tear More hate, more fear I think we're better off weird Tapping into all the emotions I forgot to feel all year Can't recall the smell of the ocean I need something real, something real Tapping into all the emotions I need something real Can't recall the smell of the ocean, something real Tapping into all the emotions I need something real Can't recall the smell of the ocean, something real