I can forgive you

Like I forgive myself

When selfishly

I disappoint you

I'm not as calm

As I seem to be

A tide within pulls you in

But is drowning me

It's out of fear

That I don't show you enough of me

Even if I want to

Please be forgiving

I'm just a little scared

Please admire me

I need to feel okay

Show me your ugliness

And I won't judge your ways

But with you, I doubt I can do the same

I am forgiving

Because I feel ashamed

I wonder if you could love me

Even when I'm insane

Even when I'm happy

Even when I'm weak, or strong

Even when I turn away from you