Let Me Die How I Want

Hide in a shell of myself Made a hell and called it home You spread through my head with the cancer cells Through every crack, through skin and bone I speak your name while I'm on the brink Take another pill 'cause I can't stop thinking The sting of the needle is a sharp and distinct Reminder you'll never depart I sink into you There's nothing left to save But broken parts A wreckage crushed by the waves Gasp for air, fathomlessly This unholy ground is devouring me Drift in and out of myself Get high for a while like a skimming stone The further I'm out the deeper I fall And despite of the crowd I'm here alone I rip through myself to open the scars The aching is all that I've come to know The stitches are breaking and tearing apart While I clamber on blistered hands through the cold I let you in, I never asked you to stay I dropped my guard, cold ground calling my name Gasp for air, Fathomlessly This unholy ground is devouring me There's no hope left within my heart I know I was doomed from the start I gasp for air But I'm powerless Jeopardised by my thinking, I'm starting to sink Face down I don't know what you are As I beg for an outstretched arm Didn't realise I'd come down quite this far I hate how I think, I'm starting to sink Face down I don't know what you are As I beg for an outstretched arm Didn't realise id come down quite this far Dry the river I've cried enough of my nights I'm sick and I'm tired Pretending I'm fine In the solace I've spent my life on the run in my mind let me die how I wanna I've dried the river I've cried enough of my nights I'm sick and I'm tired Pretending I'm fine In the solace I've spent my life on the run in my mind Let me die how I wanna I sink into you, my own mind is a grave I fell apart now there's nothing left to save Gasp for air Gasp for air Gasp for air (I hate how I think, I'm starting to sink Face down I don't know what you are) Fathomlessly This unholy ground is devouring me (As I beg for an outstretched arm Didn't realise I'd come down quite this far) I gasp for air Gasp for air