I will change everything, I will be something better

I'll take my hands and I'll write you a lovely love letter, I will

I'll try my best and I will, I'll put much better clothes on

I'll wash in places that only you know that I smelt wrong

Kiss my lips and touch my hair and tell me everything is gonna to be okay

Yeah, I'd like that

'Cause I've been staring at this photograph of me and you and I've not ate in days

And I don't like it

I know I could've been, should've been someone else but

I tried that once and it's not that good for my mental health

Still I wish that you were here but I know that's not okay and

I could pick up the phone but I've not got that much good stuff to say

Kiss my lips and touch my hair and tell me everything is gonna to be okay

Yeah, I'd like that

'Cause I've been staring at this photograph of me and you and I've not ate in days

Yeah, I don't like it

Now I'm not digging for wanky metaphors but it's just not black and white is it?

Life's a colourful thing when you look at it right

And everybody is a body and every body has a mind

But something got caught up between yours and mine

You told me once in a ticket line, I remember the way your hands felt that day

The way the light hit your face and how we thought we'd be okay

And if you could just walk down that path, and see that tree again in the garden

Would you really feel like it was all just some shit show you want to shovel right back behind your eyelids?

Like some mess to be abandoned, turn the clocks right back back and

These thoughts keep bashing me 'round, telling me it's all over

Throwing me at the walls and saying I won't make it through October

I might not make it until dawn

And like a lighthouse all alone out in the wind and in the storm

I'm holding on but it hurts, my hands are bleeding

And I know you won't hear me scream

And you know what really hurts the worst is you don't even want a single feeling

A single memory to carry on

I know we're way broke beyond the mend

And all the while I'm just living with

All the while I'm just living with the fact that I hate my best friend

I hate my best friend and my best friend hates me

Now what?