Pretend

Just pretend Wake up to the phone It's blowing up they wanna know If I'm fine, need time, offline In a hurry gotta go She says come back to bed and stay I wanna but I'm running late again Deadlines, headlines, showtime Need more hours in the day I lost my mind again Constantly stressing over what's to come And I can't help but wondering What's pulling me back I'm losing track Doctor's appointment at ten I'm sick of feeling dead Locked inside my head Every time I'm here alone If I remain the same I'll drive myself insane Fearing I'll fail in the end But I'd rather be erased than just pretend Everybody thinks I'm ghost Ain't even had the time to post for days Missed texts, distressed, no rest Always gotta do the most So don't take it personal I'm not ignoring you I just need time to realign Before my head explodes I'm sick of feeling dead Locked inside my head Every time I'm here alone If I remain the same I'll drive myself insane Fearing I'll fail in the end But I'd rather be erased than just pretend With every choice there's a risk Everybody's telling me maybe you should see a therapist So let me clue you in a bit This is my life, no filter, you should just deal with it Deal with it I'm sick of feeling dead Locked inside my head Every time I feel alone If I remain the same I'll drive myself insane Fearing I'll fail in the end But I'd rather be erased than just pretend Pretend Pretend If I remain the same I'll drive myself insane Fearing I'll fail in the end But I'd rather be erased than just pretend I'd rather be erased than just pretend