am i am

I used to think I'd

Tan my own rawhide

Eat leafs and termites

Live out some bold life

You see me roll strikes

Bumpers on both sides

Convictions aside

I'm just unfit to survive

Oh love am I am I am I an embattled actor

Playing camo in the attic of his benefactor

Oh god dannit

Am I am I am I am I am I

Chased down from the branches of a dream life

Oh why

Can't I can't I can't I be the bloody dagger

Plucked proud from the heart of a deadly attacker

Tell me am I am I am I just an actor

Chased down from the rafters of a dream life

Woke up in mid flight

Buzzing round lamp light

Too bright for small eyes

Fuck knows why

Losing sight of the bug in a swarm

I pack to leave but you know I'll come back

To where the friction is nothing but sine waves

Singing on the phone

Oh love am I am I am I a bedraggled passer

Face down in the scraps of an abandoned chapter

Oh god dannit

Am I am I am I am I am I am I

Ripped out from the pages of a dream life

Oh why

Can't I can't I can't I be the cold commander

Struck down in the clammer of a new disaster

Tell me

Am I am I

Am I just a stander

Standing by on the shoulder of a dream life

If I can I'll be the banished laughter

Burst out from the cracks of a dream life