I Will Not Be Around

I’m starting now to finally find

I’m bouncing back and forth in time

Between what I lost

And what I’ll never have

It’s the damnedest thing to champ the bit

So long you nearly swallow it

So if I choke

Just don’t dress me in plaid

It’s the long awaited cue to stop

Cause I don’t need a thing you got

So get your kicks and talk your shit

About all the precious things you bought

But please don’t be surprised

When another carney’s crowned

Cause when you look up babe

I will not be around

I moved with every breath you made

Took pictures of everything I ate

And I pressed the flesh

But I guess a different kind

Some days call for honesty

And this one’s got the best of me

You know I’ve always had

A different life in mind

I’ll keep it brief cause few words fit

This is what’s become of wit

The slightest change of aim

And brevity just murders it

But I’ve always been longwinded

And I can’t be changing now

When you look up babe

I will not be around

What could be, I have seen

And not just in my head

If I was made a different way

I might stay instead

Instead

Instead I’ll burn myself in effigy

And that’ll be my masterpiece

You know it’s more about the notes

That you don’t see

When the final ember burns

I’ll be gone as far as you’re concerned

Though you never really

Seemed to be

So if it comes off selfish

Put that one on me

But if it comes off easy

Then it’s probably just this key

‘Cause it breaks my heart to say it

But there will not be a sound

And when you look up babe

I will not be around