Failing Upwards

I have my fate in my hands again I'm thinking of how I'm a mess to him Wondering how I'm ever gonna put up with me I have my heart in my head again I'm lost as a child can be 'Cause I wander around my neighbourhood Hoping the answer will appear in front of me I'm a little uptight sometimes I don't like feeling like a trophy wife But I'll wait in the car at the end of the night 'til you arrive You feel a little misguided 'cause you misread my alliance And you still think I'm against you in every way Well, I am today And I know you're not trying to break my heart But you're doing a bang up job And I told you I'm not trying to lose your trust But at least I'm failing upwards I'm all alone at my desk again Making sense of the mess I left for him Thinking that I'm the only one who thinks all these things You feel a little bit tired 'cause you're trying not to call me a liar And you still think I'm against you in every way Well, I am today And I know you're not trying to break my heart But you're doing a bang up job And I told you, I'm not trying to lose your trust But at least I'm failing upwards At least I'm failing upwards And I know that you second guess all of your love notes When you see a photo of him in my yearbook And I know that you struggle to keep all our memories safe But I never asked him to stay and you bring him back anyway And I know You're not trying to break my heart But you're doing a bang up job And I told you, I'm not trying to lose your trust But at least I'm failing upwards Failing, failing Failing upwards Failing, failing Failing upwards