Internal Divide

So many words stuck inside tryin' to hide Don't want to say the phrase that could break her mind I thought I knew what I wanted but I guess I lied Cuz She devised a crime that made me her design Do I really wanna live this way? Being tamed everyday that I misbehave? (Do I really wanna live this way?) Am I running towards dreams or catastrophe? Am I blending my thoughts into insanity? I feel the heat that's rising inside of me Something's wrong this is my song to sing Can I go on living this way? I won't be the one who never got away (Can I go on living this way?) What's in my heart? What's on my mind? There's static in the noise There's a voice that whispers In my ear at night Echoing between the walls in my mind Threatening my feelings held inside Creating this internal divide Shh, I gotta quiet the mania to seek the truth I finally found my voice in 2022 Took so long to listen, if I only knew What the power of self-respect could really do I won't be bound by the sound of the crowd Only I get to say who I am now (only I get to say who I am now) What's in my heart? What's on my mind? There's static in the noise There's a voice that whispers In my ear at night Echoing between the walls in my mind Threatening my feelings held inside Creating this internal divide I'm losing it I'm losing it I'm losing it To the Voice that whispers In my ear at night Echoing between the walls in my mind Threatening my feelings held inside Gotta ask myself if it's me or them Whose way will I take all the way to the end If I choose you, I'm gonna lose again I shouldn't be the one that always has to bend Do I really wanna live this way? Being tamed everyday that I misbehave? I won't be bound by the sound of the crowd Only I get to say who I am now Ten thousand voices can't make me comply I'm familiar with these thoughts but they aren't mine All their words make a verse that doesn't rhyme It's time I decided my internal divide