Every time I check my phone
And there's no blinking red dot
Takes a year off my life
To a feeling once forgot
I'll stoke the flames with music recs
And see if they respond
Left side empty, a heart react
I like boys with hair dirty blonde
Ooh, and I never felt love
But I know that's a lie
This codependent endless yearn
Has sabotaged my mind
And I never give up
And I never really try
This codependent endless yearn
Has sabotaged my mind
I'll meet them in the backseat
Of someone else's car
I'll feel the lips of someone strange
So close and yet so far
His mouth tastes like a breathmint
And his hands make me feel small
I'm still surprised we got this far
I though he liked them tall
And when I wake up in his bedroom
And blame it on a dream
I'll take a swim in blue eyes
And won't say what I mean
I'll think of all the ghosts I've met
The faces on a screen
And never hear from him again
I just want to be seen
Oh, and I never felt love
But I know that's a lie
This codependent endless yearn
Has sabotaged my mind
And I never give up
And I never really try
This codependent endless yearn
Has sabotaged my mind
