I'm not even here no more

I can't make it clear no more

Caught up in the fear no more

Tryna make another year no no no

I'm not even here no more

I can't make it clear no more

Caught up in the fear no more

Tryna make another year no no no

Did it all come crashing down

Who been laughing now

Think I really need my daddy now

What his face like what the case like

To leave ya son bad & down

I been having dreams of my seeds not having things

Wouldn't that just ring a bell at the brink of hell

I used to feel like I'd sink or sell

I used to hate myself

Pissed off cause I couldn't just create myself

Pissed off, cause missed all day at the stu cause of this job

Real **** woulda switched up

Hit the stage just to get love

Cause a field of friendlys

Been feeling empty

How's it feel with a million bills

Is worth like a million enemies

I wanna kill the envy

I been feeling plenty

Too skilled for you to still resent me

But at the end of the day I might end it

I'm slighting my friendships

I'm sliding on women to feel like I'm manly

This can't be the end all the be all

I'm posed to be posed like a hero

For me & my people

My b roll outclassing a listers

I want all they listeners

I want all they sisters to feel like they brothers is bitches

At the end of my wits

Palming my head, losing my grip and

I'm drifting it's clear yo

I'm not even here no more

I can't make it clear no more

Caught up in the fear no more

Tryna make another year no no no

I'm not even here no more

I can't make it clear no more

Caught up in the fear no more

Tryna make another year no no no

I been patient enough

Been facing enough

Get high as expectations

They placing in us

I mean you clip a **** wings

Watch him struggle

I got to bubble, I'm outta pocket

I'm not for huddles

Im outta options, I'm not as popping

Sitting alone

My mama hot cause I'm not visiting home

It got like giving attention is giving a loan

Meet some women living grown

& give em a moan

& when I'm hitting they phone

It's always drift in they tone

Text encrypted with some shit that only bitches condone

But that's a different song

These crackers whore us

Adore us for the chorus

I'm the man of your allures

Till I'm performing shakurs

I'm more than streaming

I blew a bag while y'all was blowing steam'n

I'm over dreaming, living lucid till I lose grip

Till it's lucrative, till the Emmetts is the rarity

The Gweneths needs the charity

I'm power tripping, pissed that all you **** share this air with me

You gotta bare with me

I been patient enough

Been facing enough

High as expectations

They placing in us

So why you give a **** hope

& why you give a **** dope

You must've did that **** folks

I mean you cold

Venom in yo approach

I'm hoping that this emotion I'm living with I could cope

I'm old

Seen 80 in 24

Blessing & a curse i ain't pressed to see 20 more

A pessimist in polo, remember robbing for logos

Rob was in the picture now I stop & watch his photos

Army we was stroll the world shoulder shoulder

Nothing changed tho I'm the only soldier growing older

I'm over little shit, reflecting on ya life & get a little lit

& death to any **** that belittle it

corona sipping born so gifted

Just not wrapped too well

All that mud you drift in don't diminish

You a black jewel

Acting up in classes think you need a different lesson

Death of brethren