Sandstone

It's been a couple hard years, if you're hearing this You probably know just what I mean All that we hold dear has been tested here And the results are troubling When the storm came through and the cold winds blew And the walls came crashing in All we thought we knew to be tried and true Demanded to be tried again Now the bottom's at the top, a generation in shock Breaking down like my first car And the sickening drop that feels like it never stops Yeah the floor never felt so far I never want to hate, but I can't stop the rage I'm a walking double-take, and I can't change So I just try to fake that I learn from my mistakes And maybe they'll give me a break Is my identity a ploy? Am I a sham? Am I a boy? 'Cause I know I'm not a man Can I still live when the foundation gives Or is that just who I am? Expect a real cold day in a real warm place When I say I'm giving up You got your pitcher full of fears, yeah anxiety and tears Go ahead and just fill my cup When the floorboards drift and we feel the shift Of the sand we thought was stone And we try to lift up out of this ditch We find we can't do this alone From the gutter to the top, yeah we stagger till we drop But we can't do this alone I never want to hate, but I can't stop the rage I'm a walking double-take, and I can't change So I just try to fake that I learn from my mistakes And maybe they'll give me a break Is my identity a ploy? Am I a sham? Am I a boy? 'Cause I know I'm not a man Can I still live when the foundation gives Or is that just who I am? If you can see me, let me know 'Cause there's no point in the usual show If there's no one around That I might run the risk of getting to know Feel like my head's about to blow, like I can't stand to see you go But simultaneously if you ask to hang out I'll say no If you can hear me, let me scream I haven't given up on my dreams But man, it seems like every institution made by man's a scheme But we all bleed and we all breathe, no matter who we choose to be And I refuse to crawl inside a hole or turn my back and flee I will not be the bitter broken cynic crushed beneath this world Clutching desperately to what I know with every finger curled I will not fall, and if I do, then I will rise and carry on I'm not defeated, I am not utterly destroyed I am not gone I never want to hate, but I can't stop the rage I'm a walking double-take, and I can't change So I just try to fake that I learn from my mistakes And maybe they'll give me a break Is my identity a ploy? Am I a sham? Am I a boy? 'Cause I know I'm not a man Can I still live when the foundation gives Or is that just who I am? I never want to hate, but I can't stop the rage I'm a walking double-take, and I can't change So I just try to fake that I learn from my mistakes And maybe they'll give me a break Is my identity a ploy? Am I a sham? Am I a boy? 'Cause I know I'm not a man Can I still live when the foundation gives Or is that just who I am?