This sanctuary here

A momentary sunlight

And when it'll disappear

I'll still be much disordered

Tossing stones again into a large polluted lake

Racket in the distance in an endless, stable loudness

Again the boredom hits me like a ton of bricks

Reminds me I was once a part of that endless, stable, distant mess

Every once in a while

The voices from the lake they sing to me:

"Leave it a day, we'll leave you too"

The grudge torments relentlessly, it leaves you when you're gone

Hold it tight!

Escaping, running barefoot deep into the forest

Excitement, the tears are flowing down my ankles

Being ambushed, kidnapped, pounded, fractured, shattered, swept up by desire

This lakeside, the sanctuary where I'm planted

Where I'm stranded

And still, beyond range an accelerating swarm

Hollow nothingness needle in a haystack

Discarded from an out flowing ocean

Sinking down in the lake while the reeling commotion slowly breaks up

Again the boredom

Reminds me I was once a part of that endless, stable, distant mess

Every once in a while

The voices from the lake they sing to me:

"Leave it a day, we'll leave you too"

The grudge torments relentlessly, it leaves you when you're gone

Hold it tight!

Down and out, back empty handed from the lake

Looking down at my shape I wish I could emerge after I shed my skin

I'll grab a plate, stick the fork in my old crust and let it crumble in my mouth

Once I had a friend, who came around and reached her hand

But it sure wasn't her fault that I have lost a screw

And then

(Oh, the rage!) At night in a fit of rage

(Wreckage and emptiness!) I've wrecked her brains out

(Oh, please, no!) And still I miss her

(I just want somebody to hold!)

The grudge torments relentlessly

And the voice goes on and on:

"Leave it a day, we'll leave you too" (leave you too)

The boredom! Ton of bricks!